NguDave Lindorff, World BEYOND War, Julayi 12, i-2020
UDave Lindorff ngakwesokunxele engezansi, ubheke kude nekhamera, e-Pentagon ngo-Oct. 21, 1967.
Bengilokhu ngiyisishoshovu futhi ngiyintatheli yesishoshovu kusukela ngo-1967, lapho ngiba neminyaka engu-18 ngisesikoleni esiphakeme futhi, lapho sengiphethe ngokuthi iMpi YeVietnam yayiyicala lobugebengu, ngathatha isinqumo sokungaphathi ikhadi elibhaliwe, ukweqa ukusebenzisa ukuwa okulandelayo lapho kubhaliswa ikolishi ukuhlehliswa komfundi ekungenisweni, nokwenqaba ukubona ukuthi ukubizwa kwami kufike nini futhi nini. Isinqumo sami siqinisekisiwe ukuthi ngo-Okthoba lapho ngiboshwa eMall of the Pentagon ngesikhathi seMobe Demonstration, ngadonswa entanjeni noma amabutho kahulumeni ahlomile, eshaywa ngamashali aseMelika futhi aphonswa enqoleni eyiswa ejele lombuso e-Occoquan, VA to balinde ukumiswa enkantolo ngamacala okwephula umthetho nangokumelana namacala okuboshwa.
Kepha lokho kuphakamisa lo mbuzo: Kungani ngaba yisishoshovu sokulwa, impi yokulwa nokusungulwa lapho abanye abaningi besizukulwane sami bevuma ukubhaliswa futhi bayokulwa kuleyo mpi, noma kaningi, ukuthola izindlela ezinobuhlakani zokugwema ukulwa noma ukugwema okusalungiswa (ethi amathambo aqhuma njengoTrump, noma asayine i-National Guard futhi abheke ukuthi akukho yini okuthunyelwe kwamanye amazwe) njengo-GW Bush, obeka isimo seConservational Objector, alahlekelwe isisindo esiningi, enza sengathi "uyimpisi," abalekela kuyo ICanada, noma yini okusebenzayo).
Ngicabanga ukuthi kuzofanele ngiqale ngomama, "umenzi wasekhaya" omuhle owenza iminyaka emibili yokufunda amakhono asekolishi ekolishi eChapel Hill futhi wakhonza ngokuziqhenya njengeNavy WAVE ngesikhathi seWWII (ikakhulukazi enza imisebenzi yasehhovisi egqoke umfaniswano eBrooklyn, NY Igceke Lemikhumbi).
Umama wami wayeyisazi semvelo semvelo. Wazalelwa (ngokoqobo) futhi wazalelwa egumbini elikhulu lezingodo (elalikade lihholo lokudansa) ngaphandle kwaseGreensboro, eNC, wayengu “Tom boy” wakudala, njalo ebamba izilwane, ekhulisa abagxeki abayizintandane, njll. Wayezithanda zonke izinto eziphilayo futhi efundisa lokho kimi nakumfowethu omncane nodadewethu.
Usifundise ukubamba amaxoxo, izinyoka, izimvemvane, amacimbi, njll., Ukuthi ungafunda kanjani ngokuzigcina kafushane, bese kuthi ngesisekelo sokuziyeka, nazo.
Umama wayenekhono eliyisimanga lapho kufikwa ekukhuliseni izilwane ezincane, noma ngabe kwakuyinyoni ethile yezingane eye yawa esidlekeni, engabukeki futhi ebukeka njenge-fetus, noma ama-raccoon amancanyana alethwa kuye ngumuntu oshaye umama ngemoto. futhi sibathole bavinjelwe eceleni komgwaqo (sabakhulisa njengezilwane ezifuywayo, sashiya i-tamest ihlala endlini namakati ethu kanye ne-Irish Setter).
Nganginothando lokuthatheka oluneminyaka engu-12 ubudala ngesibhamu esisodwa esinguRemington .22 ngaphumelela ngandlela-thile kubaba wami onguprofesa wobunjiniyela nomama wami owayenqikaza ukungivumela ukuba ngithenge ngemali yami. Ngaleso sibhamu, nephoyinti elingenalutho nezinye izinhlamvu engikwazi ukuzithenga ngedwa esitolo sendawo sezinto zokwakha, mina nabahlobo bami abanezibhamu abalinganayo ngeminyaka sasivame ukuhlukumeza amahlathi, ikakhulukazi sidubula ezihlahleni, sizama ukuzisika ngemigqa yamahithi ngeziqu ezincane ezinamaphuzu angenalutho, kepha ngezikhathi ezithile uhlose izinyoni. Ngiyavuma ukuthi ngishaye abambalwa kude kakhulu, angikaze ngibathole ngemuva kokubabona bewa. Kwakuyindaba yokukhombisa ikhono lami ekuhloseni kunokubabulala, okwakubonakala kungabonakali. Lokho kuze kube yilapho ngake ngazingela i-grouse esontweni ngaphambi kuka-Thanksgiving nomngani wami omuhle uBob onomndeni ophethe izibhamu eziningana. Inhloso yethu kulolo hambo kwakungukudubula izinyoni zethu siziphekele iholide esizokudlela thina. Sichithe amahora amaningi singayiboni i-grouse, kodwa ngagcina ngiyikhiphile. Ngidubule kabuhlungu ngesikhathi isuka kanti izipikili ezimbalwa ezishayisile ziyishayile zayilahla kodwa yagijimela ehlathini. Ngayigijimisa, ngacishe ngaphephuka ikhanda yipal yami, okwathi ngenxa yenjabulo yaqhumisa eyayo inyoni ebalekayo njengoba ngangiyigijimisa. Ngenhlanhla yami wangikhumbula sobabili nenyoni.
Ngithole i-grouse yami eyayilimele ekugcineni ibhulashi ngayibamba, ngiphakamisa isilwane esasinenkinga. Izandla zami zasheshe zaba negazi ngenxa yamanxeba apha igazi abangelwa ukudubula kwami. Nganginezandla zami ngapha nangapha kwamaphiko esilwane ngakho-ke sasingakwazi ukulwa kepha sasibhuduzela siqalaza. Ngaqala ukukhala, ngethukile ngokuhlupheka engangikubangele. Kwaqhamuka uBob, naye ecasukile. Bengincenga, “Senzani? Senzani? Kuyahlupheka! ” Akekho kithi owayenesibindi sokugoqa intamo yakhe encane, noma yimuphi umlimi owayengazi ukuthi angayenza kanjani zisuka nje.
Esikhundleni salokho, uBob wangitshela ukuthi ngikhiphe i-grouse bese ngibeka ukuphela komgqomo wesibhamu sakhe esalayishwe kabusha ngemuva kwekhanda lenyoni wadonsa isibhamu. Ngemuva kokuthi "blam!" Ngizithole sengibambe umzimba omile womzimba wenyoni ungenantamo noma ikhanda.
Ngilethe ukubulawa kwami ekhaya, umama wami wasusa izimpaphe wangososa nge-Thanksgiving, kepha angikwazanga ukukudla ngempela. Hhayi nje ngoba yayigcwele ukudubula okuholayo, kepha ngenxa yemizwa yecala elikhulu. Angiphindanga ngadubula noma ngabulala enye into ephilayo ngamabomu.
Kimina lokho kuzingela kwegogo kwakuyinto yokuguqula; isiqinisekiso sokubuka engikhulele kumama wami ukuthi izinto eziphilayo zingcwele.
Ngicabanga ukuthi ithonya elikhulu elilandelayo kimi kwakuwumculo wesintu. Ngangihileleke kakhulu njengomshayi wesigingci nomdlali womculo wesintu waseMelika. Ukuhlala edolobheni laseyunivesithi iStorrs, CT, (UConn), lapho umbono ojwayelekile wezepolitiki kwakungukusekela amalungelo omphakathi, nokuphikisana nempi, nalapho ithonya le-Weavers, uPete Seeger, uTrini Lopez, uJoan Baez, uBob Dylan, njll., kwakunzima, futhi ukuba nokuthula kwavele kwavela ngokwemvelo kuleso simo. Akukhona ukuthi ngangingene kwezepolitiki ngisanda kweva eminyakeni eyishumi nambili. Amantombazane, egijima i-X-Country kanye ne-t rack, ejamming ekhofi lapho kwenziwa khona amasonto onke egumbini lomphakathi leCongregational Church eduze kwase-campus, nokudlala isigingci nabangani kwagcwalisa izinsuku zami ngaphandle kwesikole.
Kwathi lapho sengineminyaka eyi-17 futhi ngibhekene nokubhaliswa okuyisikhundla esiphezulu ngo-Ephreli, ngabhalisela uhlelo lweqembu lezabantu olwalufundisa inkolo nefilosofi yokuqhathanisa, umlando nobuciko. Wonke umuntu ekilasini kwakudingeka enze isethulo se-multimedia esithinta yonke leyo mikhakha, futhi ngakhetha iMpi YeVietnam njengesihloko sami. Ngagcina ngicwaninga ngempi yase-US lapho, ngafunda, ngokufundwa ku Ongokoqobo, Liberation News Service, Ramparts nokunye okushicilelwe engikufundile ngonya lwase-US, ukusetshenziswa kwe-napalm kubantu abasebenza kwamanye amazwe kanye nokunye okwethusayo okwangijikisa ngokuphelele empini, ngaba yisijeziso sokuklanywa, futhi kwangibeka endleleni yempilo yami yonke yezishoshovu zobushoshovu kanye nobuntatheli.
Ngicabanga ukuthi, uma ngibheka emuva, ukuthi inkambo yokucabanga kwami yayilungiselelwe uthando lukamama ngezilwane, lufakwe usawoti ngokuhlangenwe nakho kokubulala isilwane eduze nangomuntu ngesibhamu, umnyakazo wenhlangano yabantu, futhi ekugcineni ngibhekane nakho kokubili iqiniso okusalungiswa neqiniso lezinto ezesabekayo zeMpi yaseVietnam. Ngifuna ukucabanga ukuthi cishe noma ngubani onalezo zinto abengaze aphelele lapho ngigcine khona.
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Ungumnqobi ka-2019 woMklomelo “we-Izzy” Wokuvelela Ozimele ozimele oqhamuka e-Ithaca, e-NY-based Park Center ye-Independent Media.
