Ukulwa Nezinto Ayenzileyo

NguTom Violett

Ndiza kuyishiya le post ye-facebook ingaziwa okwangoku, eli tyendyana lilungu leGreen Party yaseNew Jersey. Ndadibana naye malunga nonyaka odlulileyo. Ungumfana onomdla kakhulu, osokola ngento ayenzileyo kunye nendlela yokuqhubela phambili. Andazi ukwenziwa kwamaqela amagqala athabatha inxaxheba kwaye amalungu abo amele ntoni kodwa ndiyakholelwa ukuba olu hlobo lwamava / umbono uyafuneka kwindibano yethu yoxolo. Ndiza kummema ukuba abekho. Mhlawumbi singamthumelela isimemo sokuzimasa. Nanga amazwi akhe. Luxolo:

Sekuyiminyaka esi-7 okokoko ndithunyelwe okokuqala kwaye ndisenamaphupha phantse bonke ubusuku base-Afghanistan.

Ukuba ngumpu, ukubhabha phantsi "ngomhlakulo wendlela" ukuya eKhost ngokukhawuleza okukhulu, sizilungiselela ukuqhuma kwe-IED engenakuphepheka

Okanye isandi esingaqondakali se-rocket ephuma kumda wePakistan ukuya kuthi

Okanye isandi somlilo we-AK kunye ne-PKM njengoko ndihlambalaza ukuba ndiyifake impahla kwaye ndilayishe i-weapon

Okanye uhlazo lwangasese emehlweni ase-Afghans amaninzi asibhekisele kulo njengoko sidlula

Okanye umnxeba wokuthandaza njengoko ilanga libekwe ngokugqithiseleyo kwiintaba ezisentshonalanga njengoko ndandibukela kwi-steppes esezantsi

Okanye ukukhanya okuluhlaza kwimizila yokukhanyisa phezu kweentaba zasempuma ebusuku

Okanye umthengisi, egxininwe egazini lakhe, iinyawo zakhe kunye neenyawo zixhoma emilenzeni yakhe ngesikhumba kunye nethambo eliqhekekileyo, isisu sakhe nesifuba sivulekile ngeemfumba zetsimbi ezikhupha ngaphandle- ixhoba le-IED lithetha ukuba i-convoy yethu yiTaliban, ngubani, ngomzuzwana mhlawumbi ukucaca kwakhe kokugqibela, wandijonga ngoncedo ngokuncenga emehlweni akhe, imizuzu ngaphambi kokufa kwakhe.

Kwaye umhlobo wam uMichael Elm, owayengu 25 kunye neenyanga ze-2 kuphela ekuyeni ekhaya, xa ebulawa yi-IED kulo mhla.

Ngokuthelekiswa namava kwamanye amabutho olwabalaseleyo, iminyaka emibini ndayichitha ngaphezu koko kwakulula. Kodwa kusenzela.

Hayi, andizange ndibulale umntu e-Afghanistan. Abantu bathanda kundibuza loo mbuzo kakhulu. Abantu bandibuza ukuba ndizisola ngokuya phambili-kwaye impendulo yenzani.

Andiceli "uthando" okanye "inkxaso" okanye kwaqwalaselwa kule post. Ndifuna nje ukuyisusa esifubeni sam. Amanye amagqala aye andilahla okanye andibiza ngokuba ngumngcatshi "ngokutshintsha amacala." Kodwa ndingathini?

Ndimele ndinyaniseke- yayiyinkunkuma eyilahleko yobomi babantu kunye namandla. Yinto endicinga ngayo yonke imihla. Andiziva ndinelunda ngenkonzo yam. Andikuthandi ukuxelela abantu ngayo. Ndinqwenela ukuba ngendiye kwikholeji endaweni yoko. Ufunde indlela yokunceda abantu endaweni yokubabulala. Kwakungekho nto intle evela emfazweni.

Ndicinga ukuba ndandingumntu onjani ngeloxesha. Kwingqondo yam ekhohlisayo bendicinga ukuba ngenene ndiyenza into elungileyo kwihlabathi. Ndacinga ukuba ndilungile, kwaye injongo yayilungile, kwaye iAfghanistan ngokwenene "yayingumlo olungileyo." Ngapha koko… kutheni enye into esasinokuyibona kwaye sibandezeleke kangaka? Kwakufuneka kubekho isizathu esihle sayo yonke loo nto. Kwakufuneka kubekho isizathu sokuba u-Elm asweleke, okanye kutheni le nto umrhwebi eswelekile, okanye kutheni abantu abaninzi befanele ukuba bafe, bakhubazeke ngokusisigxina, okanye baphulukane nawo onke amalungelo abo phantsi kolawulo olungekho mthethweni nolwangaphandle.

Kwakungekho sizathu esihle kubo bonke. Into kuphela esiyenzayo yayikhusela iimfuno zenkampani, kwaye yenza amabhiliyoni kwiinkampani ezinkulu.

Enyanisweni, ndandingenguye umntu olungileyo. Ayisiyiyo eyokuthatha inxaxheba kobona bubi bukhulu bexesha langoku- ijoni leenyawo le-impiriyali yase-US- kodwa nangokucinga ukuba yinto eyimfuneko. * Ngokucinga ukuba yinto endenze ndangumntu olungileyo. ngokuthobela nangokuzimisela okukhulu sinqula iflegi enye ebinoxanduva lokusweleka kwezigidi ezingenakubalwa… kunye nokubandezeleka kwabaninzi ngakumbi.

Kusenokwenzeka ukuba ndingazange ndibulale mntu, kodwa ndiqinisekile ukuba nesihogo ndizibulele. Sonke thina siwele apho senza- yiyo loo nto singekhe siyeke ukucinga ngayo, okanye ukuyiphupha ngayo, okanye ukuyibona ngalo lonke ixesha sivala amehlo ethu. Kuba asikaze sishiye- abafileyo bahlala apho babulawa khona.

Kwaye ngonaphakade siya kuxhonywa ngabo buso.

Abantu abaninzi endandisoloko ndibazi bayabuza "kwenzeke ntoni" kum. Ndihambe njani ekubeni ndiyintsapho enguSajini ndisiya emntwini "owuthiyileyo iMelika"? Okanye umntu 'obangcatshi ubuzalwana'? Okanye umntu "ogqithise kakhulu"?

Ndiyababuza aba bantu: Kutheni ucinga ukuba kulungile ukuba eli lizwe lenze ubundlobongela obuninzi, inzondo enkulu, * uxinzelelo * kwihlabathi liphela? Zaziphi iinkxalabo zakho malunga “nobundlobongela” njengoko ilizwe lethu belihlasela i-Iraq ne-Afghanistan- kwaye beqhubeka nokuhlala kuzo zombini, ngokuchasene neminqweno yabantu babo? Ziphi iinkxalabo zakho malunga "nobundlobongela" njengoko ilizwe lethu linyanzela abanye ukuba baguqe ngamadolo kulawulo lwaseMelika? Ngaba iibhombu ezilahlwe emitshatweni, ezibhedlele, ezikolweni, nasezindleleni azigqithanga ngokwaneleyo kuwe?

Okanye ngaba mhlawumbi unjengam, ukhetha ukujika kwisoyikiso esenziwa lilizwe lethu kwilizwe liphela, de sichaze oko? Kungenxa yokuba ukuba uyibonile, wayivuma, kwaye wazama ukuyiqonda, nawe ungothuka xa * usiyaqonda into oyenzileyo kuyo. Andifuni ukuba yingxaki kuyo kwakhona- ndifuna iphele.

Uthi, “ukuba awuyithandi iMelika, kutheni ungashukumi nje?” Kodwa ndiyaphendula: kuba ndinoxanduva- lokulwa kwaye ndilitshintshe eli hlabathi libe ngcono. Ngokukodwa njengomntu owayekhe wakhusela iimfuno zamashishini aseMelika aphesheya. Kuya kufuneka ndenze nantoni na endinokuyenza ukulungisa okungalunganga. Mhlawumbi ayinakuze yenzeke- kodwa ndiza kuzama. Ndizokulwa njengesihogo ukujongela phantsi i-impiriyalizim, i-fascism, kunye ne-capitalism kuyo yonke indawo endinako.

Ndingathini ukungakwazi? Ngaba kufanelekile ukuba ndinxibe umnqwazi "wamagqala eAfghanistan", ndinxibe ibheji yam yokulwa, kwaye ndimele ngokuthobela iflegi enye engameli ukubandezeleka kwam kuphela, kodwa ukubandezeleka okukhulu okuhlangeneyo kwabantu behlabathi?

Hayi! Ndiya kwenza into enhle ebomini bam kwaye kuya kuba kukunceda ukuphelisa lo mshini wokulwa, ukuphelisa ukubandezeleka, ukuxhaphazwa, iinkulungwane zeengcinezelo. Kwaye kwindawo yayo, sinceda ukwakha ihlabathi elitsha apho singaphila khona, sikwazi ukusebenzisana ngokufanelekileyo, size sihlolisise ukufikelela kweyona nto.

Usenokubiza oko kungeyonyani- kwaye bubudenge. Kodwa ndibiza loo njongo yobomi bam.