NguRobert Bernhard, World BEYOND War, Novemba 16, 2020

Ngelelo

Idini,
Igazi esibingelelweni,
Isibingelelo seMfazwe.

Hayi, ewe,
UThixo
Kwaye Ilizwe.
Isibindi somntu ngamnye,
Yolulwa ngomda woBomi
kubomi obulahlekileyo,
ukuvuthela iimpondo ezibuhlungu
ingoma efanayo yokulala
njengokufa.

Uninzi luye lwayibiza kufanelekile,
ke akukho mfuneko yokuba bathi
imfazwe imosha imiphefumlo,
ubuqaqawuli nozuko
ezinikwa abasindileyo
endaweni yokuba kuthiwe nabani na
idini elingaphelelanga.
Umrhumo wamkelwe,
Iimfazwe ezininzi ziyaqhubeka
ukungangcolisi, okanye ukuba manzi,
okanye igazi,
okanye ugqunywe ngumbilo
ukusuka ukukhawuleza ukulinda,
okanye emsebenzini,
okanye uloyiko kunye noxinzelelo
yokubulala
Ukujikeleza ngemithambo.

Sonke siyafa,
amajoni nabantu,
kwabo Mongers,
kwizipaji zabo ezizalisiweyo,
hayi ngenkululeko,
hayi inkululeko yomntu.

Abanye bafa,
kwaye sonke salila ngelo xesha,
thina ngokwethu njengoko
abafileyo.
Kwaye ngoku, eDongeni,
simlilela lowo,
kwaye lowo,
kwaye lowo,
Elo gama kuDonga,
igama ngalinye kuDonga.

Igama ngalinye kuDonga
sithi.
Sakhala ngoko,
kwaye siyakhala ngoku,
hayi eyomntu owayekhona
vala okanye isiqwenga sethu,
kodwa kumntu owayekhona
ngamnye wethu,
ye "Ndi".

Xa sihleka kwaye sicula
kaThixo nozuko,
Siyakhala.
Sililela igazi lika "Ndi"
kuchitheke,
Uchitheke esibingelelweni sikaThixo,
isibingelelo soothixo bonke
kwakukhe kwakho.
Kuba bonke oothixo babekhona
ubeneAltare yeMfazwe
ukuba igazi lika "Ndi" liqhubeke,
ukuthululela.

Siyakhala
kuba noluhlu lweDonga
thina, ngu "Ndi",
Ngokunjalo, ziiMfazwe zeMfazwe,
abacocekile, banelungelo,
free of gore, lula, abazizityebi
ngemali eprintwe kwi
Igazi lika "Mna" lifihla,
ngenzuzo eyaneleyo yokuthenga
wonke umntu ithegi yenja,
ukusenza sonke sicinge "thina"
asiyiyo "mna"

Siyakhala kuba "mna" ndiyafa
uthixo ogama lakhe
akukho mntu waziyo,
nokuba uthixo angathanda
unikele ngonyana wakhe,
kwaye vumela igazi lonyana wakhe ukuba
Qinisekisa imfazwe engakumbi.

Aleluya, ndingu "I."
Ndinguye.
Ndinguye lowo.
Ndinguye endikho ukuba ndibekho.

Nangona ndakhonza kwaye
andinabhongo,
ndisenguye
Enkosi ukubulelwa,
wamkelekile ukwamkelwa ekhaya.
Ndifuna ukubulelwa
wamkela ekhaya.
Kwaye ngelixa ndilila kuba
"Ndi" wasweleka,
Ingaba kutheni,
kazi kutheni uthixo engafi,
kutheni singafuni
loo thixo makafe
kwisibingelelo sika "Ndi"
ukuze sonke siphile kwi
uxolo olungenamfazwe,
ukuthandana

ukuya kufikelela ku "I."

Ngokuphathelele umbhali:

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