Handisambofungi Kuti Ndive Munhu Anoramba Nehana

NeMat Malcom, World BEYOND War

Handina kumbobvira ndaitarisira kuva hana yehana yangu.

Dai iwe ungadai wakandibvunza makore maviri apfuura kuti ndireve zvinhu zvekutanga zvakasvika mupfungwa pandakazvinzwa zita iri, ingadai yakave mazwi akafanana nekendadhi, kutya, kuzvikudza, kusaziva, uye kusatenda.

Ndinofungidzira kuti kukura kunotangira sei kushanda. Zvino ndinoona kuti mazwi aya haagoni kunge ari kure nechokwadi.

Iyi ndiyo nyaya yangu, asiwo iyo nyaya yemakange akauya pamberi pangu, asi vamwe vavo vanozivikanwa. Ndiyo nyaya yavose vasingatyi vasingadi zita risina kutya, avo, vasina kumbofanira kupa junifomu kuti vaone kuti chisimba hachigoni kuva mhinduro chaiyo yepakakakavadzana. Kune avo vakachenjera zvakakwana kuti vanzwisise kuti hondo haina zvishoma nekuita zvinogadziriswa, uye zvakawanda zvekuita ne ego-centricism, kushandiswa, pfuma nesimba.

Ini zvino ndava kuziva kuti vanhu ivavo vandakakurumidza kurega sevane pfungwa uye vasina simba, varipo vanyoro vanogona kungotora nyika.

Rwendo rwangu rwakatanga nemurangariro, rimwe rakaputirwa nemafungiro evechidiki kuti ribudirire, kuronga chimiro changu chaicho-chinokosha kunyika, kuva murwi, kuva noushingi uye kuvimbiswa. Ichi chimiro chaicho chakava chinokanganisa. Ndaida kuvimbiswa, uye ndaida kufamba nenzira yose. Ndakashanda kuti ndaida kutevera baba vangu nekuru vangu mubasa rechiuto, kuti ndaida kuva mukuru mukuru wemauto akaita savo asi ini ndaida dambudziko rangu pachedu, chinyorwa chandingadai ndiri nacho pasi pechikwama changu. Baba vangu vakagamuchira basa ravo kuburikidza neYunivhesiti yeTexas, uye sekuru vangu vakapfuura nevakuru vakuru veChikoro Candidate pazvidzidzo zvepamusoro. Ndakanga ndichienda kundoita kuWest Point.

Saka ndinoisa zvandiri kutarisa pamusangano. Ndakaita zvinhu zvose musimba rangu kuita kuti kurota uku kuve kwechokwadi. Ndakatoenda kuchikoro chepamberi (inozivikanwa seSIMAPS) iri mumugwagwa kubva kuWest Point's main campus apo ini ndakatanga kurambwa kupinda mukirasi ye2015. Gore rakatevera ndakagamuchirwa muC2016 uye ndakanzwa sokunge upenyu hwangu hwakazara.

Kwenguva yekutanga munguva yakareba, gore rangu idzva raive nguva yekusava nekurota kana vavariro yekubudirira. Kusvika kuWest Point ndizvo zvandakanga ndagara kwenguva refu ndichifunga kuti ndakafunga nezvimwe zvishoma. Mune iyi mamiriro matsva umo ini ndakanga ndisingawanzogadzirisa nekushanda kuti ndiwane pane imwe nzvimbo, pakanga pane kunyarara mukati ndakanga ndisati ndambozivikanwa. Ndakanga ndine nguva yekufungisisa pachedu, dambudziko, nekufunga kwakazvimirira. Ndakanga ndataurirwawo mune zvekunamata zvekufungisisa izvo zvakasimbisa simba rangu rekuoma nekufunga zvakare.

Ndakatanga kuva neveredredal aversions kune nzvimbo yangu. Kutanga, kwaiva kumira uye kutonga kwechirongwa chakafanana neWest Point. Haisi iyo inokonzera kushungurudzika ne "plebe year" sezvainozivikanwa, asi kuve nekudzika kwakadzika maitiro ekutenda kune zvatakanga tichiita uye kuti taizviita sei. Zvadaro, ndakatanga kunzwa ndisinganzwisisiki pamusoro pemhando yevanhu vataidzidzisa zvakaoma kuva; zvakasununguka, zvinyorwa zvenyika, zvepolitiki, zvisingabatsiri vanoita zvechisimba uye nyika dzakasiyana-siyana dzinotsigirwa mabasa echisimba. Ipapo ndakaona kuti mararamiro aiita sei maKapa naVaKoloneri vakadzoka kuzodzidzisa. Yakava yakajeka kuti dai ini ndisina kubuda nokukurumidza iniwo ndingapinda mukati mekusununguka, kupera, kuputsika, uye pakupedzisira (chiitiko chakaipisisa) kugamuchirwa.

Ndakagara mumakamuri anogara mavarume nevakadzi vakawanda avo vakanga vatofamba munzira yangu uye vakazarura pamusoro pokusakwanisa kushamwaridzana kana kunzwa rudo kune vana vavo. Mumwe murayiridzi ari kuseka kuti dai asina kuronga nguva yevana vake mu-iPhone kalenda yake haazoyeuka kutamba navo.

Ndakanga ndisingatyi kukuyeuka nyaya iyi nedzimwe boka revatariri pachitendero chechiitiko vachifungidzira kuti ivo vachanzwawo kusinganzwisisiki pamusoro pekushaya simba kwakadai muupenyu. Kushamisika kwangu, vakareurura nzira yakafanana yekuchengetedza hupenyu hwemhuri yavo.

Handisi kuti ivo vanhu vakaipa, ndiri kutaura kuti hupenyu hunoita chimwe chinhu kwatiri tose, uye ndakanga ndisingazivi kuti yakanga ine utano kana inobatsira kune dzimwe nzanga.

Saka ini ndanga ndakatarisana nekubvunzwa, izvi zvakakosha here? Kwete kune ini chete, asi zvakadini nevanhu vanoita basa rangu, avo vari "kune uko" nevaya vanozogamuchira kuputika kwezviitiko zvangu zvekurwisana mukurwa.

Mubvunzo uyu wakatora nzvimbo yechirangaridzo yeramangwana rangu uye hupenyu hwangu hwakanaka ndokuupenya pachena kune vamwe, kunyanya vanhu vandaidzidziswa kuuraya.

Kunyanya kunyanya, vanhu vasina mhaka vakabatwa mukati-kati vachikwira "kukuvadzwa kwekukuvadza." Zvechokwadi hapana munhu aida kubhadhara zvakashata, kunyange zvazvo izvi zvaiwanzoonekwa kubva pane chinangwa chisingatauri chirevo chehupenyu hwehupenyu hwevanhu. Yakanga yakafanana nechepamusoro pekukanganisa kwataidzidziswa kugara mukati. Kana iwe ukaenda kure nechokunze kwemahombekombe aya (kureva kuti vazhinji vemazuva mazhinji vakafa nekuda kwezvisarudzo zvako) mugumisiro waizova jeri nguva.

Nenguva ino ndaive kupinda mune-mafirosofi angu-mune izvi nei mibvunzo yakanga yakakosha zvikuru. Ndakadzidza kubvunza mibvunzo yakanaka kwazvo, ndakadzidza kuteerera manzwi aimbogara ndichizvidza, ndakadzidza kuzarura pfungwa dzangu nekufunga zvakawanda kupfuura izvo zvandaimboziva. Ini ndakabvumira kuti ndive mhirizhonga, uye ndakapikisa izvo zvisinganzwisisi.

Rimwe zuva ndakamira pamatanho emagranite eimba yejasitari ndinorangarira ndichibvunza shamwari yangu, "Mike, ko kana isu tiri vanhu vakaipa?"

Zvinonakidza, hakuna munhu anofunga kuti ivo vakaipa.

Nyika yangu yakanga iri kuparara.

Sezvandinoenda kune gore rangu rakakura zviri pachena iyezvino kuti ndakanga ndava nyanzvi yekudzvinyirira, kuvhiringidzika, kuzviramba, uyewo kuora mwoyo. Pamazuva angu akatendeka ndakaona kuti iniwo ndaive zvakanaka munzira yangu yekuve baba, murume nemurume ari kure, zuva rimwe chete. Pamazuva angu akaipa ini ndakanyepa uye ndakati zvose zvaizova nani apo ndaive kunze uko, zvichida Hondo yakashanda yakanga iri nani ini naively ndakazviudza.

Zvechokwadi, hazvina kubudirira. Uye ini ndakanga ndakatora sarudzo yangu yekupedzisira yebazi reMunda Artillery-imwe yematavi anouraya anogoneka.

Sezvandakafamba kuburikidza nekudzidziswa kwandakaitwa mukuru wehurumende, chokwadi chechisimba chakawedzera. Ndakanga ndichiuraya vanhu vazhinji zuva nezuva mukuenzanisa. Takatarisa mavhidhiyo evasina kurwiswa "akatongerwa magandanga" achivhiringidzika sezvavakagara vasingafungi mudenderedzwa. Mumwe akakwanisa kuenderera mberi achirasikirwa negumbo mumhepo. Boom! Rimwe denderedzwa uye murume wacho akanyangarika.

Vazhinji vekirasi yangu vaifara, "Hell hongu!"

Ndakanga ndiri munzvimbo isina kururama.

Asi Hondo yaiva neni. Ndakanga ndine chikamu chemakore masere uye vakabhadhara chikoro changu.

Ndakaputsa.

Rimwe zuva shamwari yangu yakandikumbira kuti ndione iyo movie Hacksaw Ridge, nyaya yakakurumbira yekuramba nehana nekuda kwehana panguva yeWWII. Ndakapedza firimu ichi kumutonga, ndichirwisana nemafungiro angu akare edzidziso yepamusoro yekuti sei dzimwe nguva makwai akave akadikanwa, nei hondo yakarurama. Ndakasangana naMicheal Walzer mukudanidzira nenzwi guru, murume akanyora kuunganidza kwemazuva ano kwezvose Just War.

Asi, pane chimwe chisinganzwisisiki zvakadzika mumweya wangu, firimu yakashanda kwandiri.

Pakarepo, pakati pefirimu ndakava kurwara zvikuru pamusana pokurutsa. Ndakamhanyira kune imwe imba kuti ndizvichengete ini asi panzvimbo yekukandira, ndakatanga kuchema.

Ndakabatwa ndakarinda sokunge ndakanga ndisingatarisiri maitiro angu. Ndakanga ndisingazivi mafungiro emanzwiro nekutenda kwakange akavharidzirwa mukati mekugutsikana kwangu mushure memakore ekudzivirirwa kwakadzidza.

Kamwe payakasvika, zvakadaro, pakanga pasina kudzoka shure.

Saka ndakagadzirira kuita chimwe chinhu, chinhu chipi nechipi chinobuda kunze kwekusingaperi kusingaperi kwekufa, kuparadzwa, nekuuraya. Ndaiziva kuti ndaifanira kusiya, uye upenyu hwaisazombofanana.

Ndakatanga kudzidza, kudzidza kuti ndaiva ani, chii icho chi-kusvika-iye zvino chitendero chisingazivikanwi chakanga chiri.

Ndakatanga kupedza deconstruction. Ini ndakashandura zvachose ini ndaive ndichiverenga, zvandaifunga, nenzira yandakaisa nyika. Zvose zvandaimboita zvitsvene zvakadai, zvakabviswa pachifufuro ndokuputsika pasi.

Runyararo rwakava chokwadi chakanga chakange chakareba chakavanzwa pasi pechiso chehondo yose inenge isingadzivisiki. Unyoro, mwoyo yakazaruka, kutora, kutambira-kugamuchirwa uye rusununguko rwevakasarudzwa vakazova zvido zvangu zvepamusoro. Iko kwaimbova nembiru dzekuzvibata kwakarurama, ikozvino kwakamira kuwira pasi. Uye kana iwe wakatarisa zvakaoma, unogona kuona masora uye uswa hwehupenyu hutsva huchifambisa.

Pashure pemakore maviri ekukumbira, kumirira, uye kuzviita kuti ndizviratidze kubasa zuva rega rega, ini pakupedzisira ndakasunungurwa nekuremekedzwa sekuramba mune zvehana muna August wegore rino.

Ini zvino ndava kushanda nokuda kweChirongwa cheRudo Coalition. Isu sangano rekuita kuti vanhu vave nerunyararo rinobatana nekugadzirisazve basa rekugadzirisa zvinhu zvekugarisa muhutano hwekuvandudza hurumende. Mharidzo yedu ndeyokuratidza, kuteerera, uye kubva kunze. Tinoda kutanga, kubvunza mibvunzo gare gare uye havatyi kuenderera mberi kune izvo zvinonzi vavengi. Zvose zvebasa redu rinotarirwa muIraq neSiria panguva ino, uye ini ndinoshanda pane sangano rekutsigirwa reeseide.

Handina ruzivo kuti ndawana sangano randinofanirwa naro zvakakwana, uye ndinoonga zvikuru kumuka zuva nezuva ndichiita rugare-kunyanya munzvimbo dzandakanga ndadzidzira kurwisana!

Ndinogovera nhau iyi nokuti kune rumwe rutivi rwehupenyu, ego yakaparadzwa nerudo uye tsitsi ndezvose zvandakasiya. Ndinotarisira kuti kufanana nevakafa uye vakavigwa mucheki wemuouki, rimwe zuva rinogona kubuda kuti rimire refu musango werugare. Mbeu idzi dziri kudyarwa kwose kwose ikozvino (zvirokwazvo ini ndiri mumwe wevaya vanoramba zvehana nekuda kwehana yangu yeWest Point Class!)

Chinangwa changu hachina kumbobvira chichinja munhu upi zvake kufunga kana kuita kuti vamwe vabvumirane neni. Pane kudaro, ndinotarisira kuti mukugovana nyaya yangu veterans of pacifism vanokurudzirwa, avo vanowana rugare zuva rega rega vanotsunga, uye avo vanoshamisika kuti ivo varipi pakusununguka kwekuzvarwa patsva vanogona kuva neshamwari pane imwe nzira yakasurukirwa, rwendo runotyisa.

Kunyika Yorugare Yese Isu Tose Tinoziva Inogona,

Matt