By Robert C. Koehler
“A lokacin horo na asali, ana sanya mu makamai: ranmu ya koma makami.”
Yakubu George's kashe kansa a watan da ya gabata - 'yan kwanaki bayan Shugaba Obama ya sanar da cewa Amurka ta kaddamar da yakinta da ISIS - ya bude wani rami mai zurfi a cikin asalin kasa. George: mawaƙa, ɗan wasan banjo, mawaƙi, jarumin zaman lafiya, tsohon soja. Ya yi rangadi uku a Afghanistan. Ya kawo yakin gida. Yayi kokarin gyara barnar.
A ƙarshe, a ƙarshe, ya kai ga “maganin da za a tabbatar da shi don kawo ƙarshen raɗaɗin,” kamar yadda wani abokin aikin likitan dabbobi ya faɗa Gaskiya. Shi ne 32.
Watakila wani yakin kuma ya fi karfinsa ya jure. daukakar soja - kariya ga marasa laifi - manufa ce ta karye, karya ce mai ban tsoro. "Lokuttan mayaƙan yaƙi suna da tauri saboda mun san ainihin abin da zai faru da ayyukan da Obama ya yi magana akai a cikin jawabinsa na baya-bayan nan, "abokinsa Paul Appell ya shaidawa Truthdig. "Yakubu da sauran mayaƙan yaƙi sun san azaba da wahala da za a yi wa 'yan'uwanmu ko da wane irin sharuɗɗan da za a yi amfani da su wajen kwatanta yaƙi, ko an yi shi daga nesa da jirage marasa matuƙa da bama-bamai ko kuma ido-da-ido."
Kuma yaƙe-yaƙe ba su ƙarewa. Suna ta ci gaba da tafiya, cikin ruhin wadanda suka yi yaki da kashe-kashe. Guda na yaki yana shawagi a cikin iska da ruwa. Nakiyoyi da bama-bamai da ba a fashe ba, da aka dasa a cikin kasa, a jira a yi hakuri su fashe.
A cikin wani littafi da George ya wallafa mai suna “Zuciyar Soja,” wanda ke ɗauke da waƙoƙin waƙoƙin wakokinsa da yawa tare da kasidu da ke tattauna mahallin da aka rubuta su a ciki, ya bayyana waƙarsa mai suna “Filin Wasa na Yaƙi.” An rubuta lokacin da yake dawo zuwa Afghanistan tare da tawagar zaman lafiya - George yana daya daga cikin likitocin Afghanistan na farko da suka yi irin wannan abu - kuma a wani lokaci sun ziyarci, Allah ya taimake mu, gidan kayan tarihi na nakiyoyi.
Jagoran, "mai wuyar fuska," mai cike da motsin rai, ya bayyana, George ya rubuta, cewa "zai ɗauki fiye da shekaru ɗari na yin aiki kwanaki bakwai a mako don kawar da kowace nakiya daga Afghanistan. Ya ce kakanninsu da kakanninsu na aikin gonakinsu da garma, amma yanzu suna aikin gonakinsu da na’urorin gano karfe da kuma sandunan katako. Maimakon girbi dankali, suna girbe abubuwan fashewa. Yana gaya mani abubuwa iri-iri da ke canza rayuwata cikin ‘yan mintoci kaɗan.”
Wannan yaki ne. Yaƙi baya ƙarewa. George ya dawo gida da yaƙi a cikinsa kuma ya hau kekensa a duk faɗin ƙasar don inganta zaman lafiya. Thich Nhat Hanh ya yi wahayi zuwa gare shi, ya fahimci cewa tsoffin sojoji "za su iya taimakawa wajen jagorantar warkar da al'umma" A cikin 2012, ya yi tafiya a Chicago don nuna adawa da NATO kuma ya dawo da lambobin yabo. Tafiya tare da abokan aikin likitanci, ya jagoranci wannan kiran: “Mama, Mama, ba za ki iya gani/Me Uncle Sam ya yi min ba?”
Ya kira aikinsa na salama “la’ilin adalci.” Ya ce "yadda muke canza PTSD zuwa wani abu mai kyau."
Har ila yau, ya yanke wasiƙar ta ƙarshe daga ƙaƙƙarfan: damuwa bayan tashin hankali ba cuta ba ce, ya gane, amma cikakkiyar dabi'a ce, mai hankali don cutar da wasu. Ya kira shi da rauni a ɗabi'a.
Wani likitan dabbobi, Brock McIntosh, an yi hira da shi akan "Democracy Yanzu” jim kadan bayan George ya kashe kansa, ya ce: “. . . ya ga ana kashe mutane da dama a Afganistan, sannan ya kuma yi magana kan ganin tsoro a idanun 'yan Afghanistan. Kuma ra'ayin cewa zai iya sanya tsoro a cikin wani nau'i na damuwa da shi. Kuma ya yi mafarki da yawa lokacin da ya dawo, kuma ya ji kamar ya ware kuma bai faɗi ainihin labarinsa ba. Amma a cikin 'yan shekarun da suka gabata, ya sami damar ba da labarinsa da kuma kulla dangantaka mai dorewa, ba kawai tare da sauran tsoffin sojoji masu ra'ayi daya ba, har ma da 'yan Afghanistan."
A cikin "Zuciyar Soja," George yayi magana game da tsarin ɓata ɗan adam wanda ke farawa a horo na asali. An “juyar da rayukan matasa zuwa makami.” Wannan hoton da ba zan iya wuce shi ba. Hankali ne game da yanayin yaƙin da ba za a iya barin shi ya kasance cikin tarko a cikin kowane ma'aikacin da aka yi amfani da shi ba - cewa babban yunwar mu don yin nagarta, don ba da gudummawa ga kyautatawar duniya, ana ba da umarnin son kai da son rai kuma an dasa su a cikin kasa mu zama kamar nakiyar kasa.
"Ta hanyar warkar da kaina daga PTSD, na gano ba zai yiwu a wulakanta wasu ba tare da wulakanta kai ba," in ji shi a cikin "Zuciyar Soja."
George, ya kasa samun gurbi a cikin al'ummar da yake tunanin zai bar gida don ya kare, ya yi magana da farko ga duk sauran likitocin da suka dawo da suka makale a cikin jahannama guda daya. Abin da ya gane shi ne cewa ta hanyar mika sauran rayuwarsa don kawar da yaki ne kawai zai iya samun kwanciyar hankali. Ta yin haka, ya yi canji na ruhaniya, daga soja zuwa jarumi.
"Ka ga," in ji shi, "soja yana bin umarni, soja mai aminci, kuma soja yana da fasaha da dabara. Jarumi ba shi da kyau sosai wajen bin umarni. Jarumi yana bin zuciya. Jarumi yana da fahimtar juna da abokan gaba, ta yadda tunanin haifar da ciwo ko cutar da abokan gaba yana haifar da zafi ga mayakin.”
Kuma yanzu wani jarumi ya sake tafiya kamar yadda wani yaki ya fara.
“Mun shafe shekaru 12 muna yaki. Mun kashe tiriliyoyin daloli, ”in ji Bernie Sanders kwanan nan a CNN. "Abin da ba na so, kuma ina jin tsoro sosai, shine Amurka ta shiga cikin wani hali da kuma shiga cikin yaƙe-yaƙe na dindindin kowace shekara bayan shekara. Wannan shine tsoro na."
Na tabbata wannan shi ma tsoron Yakubu George ne. Na tabbata ya ji a ransa.
Robert Koehler ya lashe lambar yabo ne, mai wallafa labarai na Chicago da kuma marubuci na kasa. Littafinsa, Ƙarfin Ƙarfafa Ƙarfi a Wound (Xenos Press), har yanzu akwai. Tuntuɓi shi a kahlercw@gmail.com ko ziyarci shafin yanar gizonsa a commonwonders.com.
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